Sunday, February 21, 2010

Only two weeks and four days left . . .

. . . . until I'm fifty. How did that happen? I had all these lofty plans, OK, well, one achievable goal I wanted to reach before the big day. Back when I made it in January, March 11 seemed a lot farther (or is it further?) away. That will now be my goal--to relearn the difference between those two words. I can accomplish that without getting up at 5:15 to go to Spin class, without dieting, without committing to anything long-term, heck, without even getting up out of this chair, I can become reacquainted with something I used to know.

But I don't want to. Why?

I'm lazy. And I've reached a new low if opening another window on the screen seems like too much work.

There, I said it. Albeit shamefully, I admitted it--I'm lazy. In a world that values a body in motion, staying in motion, creating, producing, achieving, making "x's" on check-lists, I'm lazy
which is unacceptable for someone of German heritage. Auch der lieber!

But am I lazy or am I simply tired? Whichever it is, will I be more of "it" the older I get? Or is it just a phase, like adolescent acne and worrying about whether the person you like in 5th hour Spanish class "LIKES you" likes you or just "likes you?"

I don't know. Help me out.

P.S. *FARTHER denotes physical advancement in distance. FURTHER denotes advancement to greater degree, as in time. But I'm too lazy to go back and fix that.


  1. I don't think it's laziness. . .I just think as time goes on, you start to realize what's worth your time and what isn't. Just my theory, anyway-- but maybe I'm lazy, too! :)

  2. It's Winter-- we're not supposed to be moving around and thinking. By evolutionary design this is when we sleep and sit and eat and wait until Spring. Case closed.

  3. Thanks, that helps. I agree, Russ. Eastern philosophy says this is a time to turn inward and nurture ourselves so that we'll have energy to bloom in the spring. It sounds much less lamer coming from Lao Tsu.

  4. Believe it or not, once you've been in the 50's for a little while, the number loses a lot of its significance. There's also a feeling of freedom that comes with being 50 or more - at this point, it really doesn't matter much what others think, it's what I think and what I want from life that matters to me. I get energy from that. Even the BIG things can slide - if I can't do anything about it, I'm not willing to waste a lot of energy worrying about it. I've got things to do before I'm done!

  5. I'm with Russ. Too cold for that kind of ambition. Let's all watch TV until Spring.

  6. toon, why can't i find your blog? i am so blog-challenged. help. i need a dose of funny.